winter break 2011/2012

One week from today and I will be sitting in a ballroom at the aph with a handful of my sisters being trained for our new exec positions. Yay :) The only non-yay part is leaving Concord around 7am next Sunday in order to make it back to my apartment, unload all of my stuff, and then be at the aph by 10am (aka 5-10 minutes early because I do nottt run on phi mu time - I hate being late!).

A lot has changed since I've last written in this thing. This past semester has been one of my most difficult in regards to the amount of coursework I've had. I had a 25 page paper and faculty presentation for one class. I had to administer and write reports for 3 standardized tests as well as the regular everyday assignments and 100 question short answer exam. My exams in my reading class were insane. FDN was a pointless class for a special ed major, so was CI. Although it gave me some insight into creating a website and creating a lesson plan, which I'd never actually done.

Luckily, somehow, I managed to come out of this semester with all As. How in the heck did I do that?! What bugs me, though, is that I came out with a 3.81 semester gpa and still didn't make chancellors list - with all As (granted half were A-). So insane. I was so proud of myself thinking I'd finally managed chancellors list for once, but no. App state crushed my dreams. Thanks. Hah.

This semester was good for me within the greek life realm, though. After being MIA the semester before because, let's face it, everyone needs a break sometimes, I finally got back into hyper-involvement mode. Re-ran for a position and go it - yay. I took another little, and she's totally perfect (duh!), I got two glittles who are equally perfect (my family would never take less than perfect!), went to every function, showed up to every tailgate, and enjoyed the last home game with some of my favorite seeesters! :). Helped a lot with philanthropy, went to Levine's for the halloween booth, random roadtrips with new and old girls - nothing more fun than our recruitment trip to TN - learned SO much! It was great to reconnect with some of the girls, especially my PC, who I'd veered away from the semester before. Gahh I needed a pledge class reunion, especially after the sweetest of sweet girls informed me how I'd been a total beyotch ("kate ,, can I be completely honest with you for a sec") HAHAHA ohh wow :)

I'm so ready for what this spring has to offer, with everything. School, sorority, life..

I'm a year behind in school, so I'll just not be starting block this semester. I'm kind of nervous about finally being in a classroom. I've been so on and off with if I'd actually be a good teacher and how I'd rather work in a profession that isn't teaching, but still with ec kids, that I'm on edge. With Phi Mu I'm just hoping I do my exec position to the best of my ability and that I'm not that hated exec member who lets power get to her head/doesn't do her job/is obnoxious . With school, I also want to make good grades again, keep up the good work, and not let the stress get to me.

With life, my biggest decision is to really start to let Joel go now. I've messed up all relationships since him because I don't want to get hurt the way I did with him. I also don't want to give up on what we had. In my mind I'll never find something as special or wonderful, so I never wanted to try. But, despite everything, it's time to finally move on. Fitzy & all of Joel's clothes are now in the closet. I can't bring myself to get rid of everything quite yet, but at least it's put away in storage. I've taken all the jewelry he gave me and put that to the side, too. It's hard. It was SO weird being at work yesterday and every time I went to grab my necklace to make sure the clasp was in the back, or just to play with the necklace, it wasn't there. I felt naked without it.

It's time to move away from the past. Joel was a giant part of mine. But he's gone now. He died, and I need to get over it. He's not coming back, so I need to stop holding on, waiting, or whatever creepy thing I'm doing.

Well, that's all I have for now.

Happy 2012. Hopefully everyone is wrong and the world doesn't end. I've only gotten started with truly living! :)

whaddduppp fall !

So I haven't updated this in ages, it feels.

HAPPY AUTUMN!!

The remainder of summer was awesome. Living in an apartment in Boone is SO much better than the dorms. Everything about living here is awesome, except the buses - as usual. School is fine. I'm getting lazier and lazier as the semester progresses. Thank goodness my classes are pretty easy. I'm working at the gym as a fac tech, aka I clean for two fours hours on mondays and two hours on thursdays. Whatever, it's money in the bank.

Now, I can get to why I wanted to update.

Today I learned to NEVER try settling for someone when you know all along that you have someone else in your mind. You'd think you have a type but someone else is interested so you give them a chance and they turn around and act sleezy. Like, what was the point of straying from your original type to begin with? What a waste of the last 6 months. Oh well. Goes to show you should listen to your friends when they say to keep away. I feel like giving someone the benefit of the doubt is usually good, but apparently not. Boys are dumb. Girls are hypocrites. Thank goodness for best friends who keep you sane, though, right? Yeah.

Well now that I've finished that rant... yesterday was super fun :) Skipped our tailgate with TKE to hang out with Mrs Teeter & her fam. omg last time I saw the little ones they were not talking. totally caught me by surprise. highlight of yesterday was getting to go in the moon bounce and down the big ol inflatable slide. If they do this every tailgate, I know where I wanna be!! hahaha Hung out at the APH watching the Titanic til I finally made it back to my apartment last night. Stayed in, went to bed early, slept in all day today, watched Titanic again (thanks E! for putting it on a zillion times in the past month) anddd moped in bed all day like the little piss ant that I am.

Okay, well that's about it. No more settling for stupid boys. I'm gonna wait til I find my wonderful down home honest country boy or i'm gonna be a dog lady forever (sorry, just not a fan of cats, with the exception of a select few). kbye :)

i love flying

I went to New York! yay :) It was a ton of fun. The plane ride home was the best part, I think. We hit an air pocket and the plane dropped a few feet and then hit a BUNCH of turbulance, some old lady started screaming (old, as in, like.. 50s), everyone looked really tense and freaked out, and I just cracked up laughing - got a bunch of angry looks for that HAHA. I love flying, so it didn't bother me.

Anyway, while we were there I got to see a TON of family, finalllyyy meet the youngest of the cousins, jack, who's only 6. he's funny. got to see some cousins I havne't seen in YEARS... ridic. We counted up and there are 26 of us cousins on the fruscello side of the family. it's awesome.

I got to play bartender a few times and mix up a few concoctions for the older cousins and got to lay out at the pool with them. It's funny... I told my cousin stacey how I used to look up to her as a kid and thought she was the coolest person ever, and now i'm finally "grown up" hangin out by the pool and at the bars with them. haha. so crazy. I turned my cousin bianca into a little southern princess, convinced my uncle to buy her some cowboy boots... she actually fit into mine (she's 11!!!) and she followed me around all night the way I used to follow my older cousins. so cute. I gave her my sunglasses to take home with her and she was super excited.

One of my aunts (the one we stayed with) took my cousin bree & i to this art gallery and shopping downtown one day - the cutest shops ever.. some a little pricey for my liking (we saw shorts that were near $200 and were like.. heckkk no!). Some guy at a chocolate shop told me I look nothing like a guinea .. raahuuudeee. I may not look italian, but it's 100% in my blood. must have ancestors from northern italy with how pale I am, espec compared to the people i was with.

The last day we were in NY was a bad one. uncle john finally passed away, so we all got together and uncle freddy's and had a big dinner, my mom & her siblings all talked and stuff while the kids hung out inside. it was crazy bc it started storming when we were in the pool and then the power went out in the house. ahhh . uncle john's funeral is coming up this weekend and his obituary is out... http://robinsonfuneralhomes.com/fh/obituaries/obituary.cfm?o_id=1215984&fh_id=10720

okay welllll i forgot what else i was writing so this is all. kbyee

sweet summertime :)

Wow it has been a long time since I've written in this.

Summer has been quite interesting, to say the least.

I'm still working at the jump, but only the jump now. I couldn't deal with Firehouse anymore. Yuck. Four years was long enough. Unfortunately, I cannot get the hours I really need working where I do now, so I'll probably look for a part time job in Boone, just some simple spending money, so not really more than 10-15 hours per week. I feel like that shouldn't be too difficult since I don't have classes monday or friday and my wednesday classes don't begin until 2. The only problem is with recruitment first semester I definitely can't work weekends and nights until nearly October. And then second semester who knows what classes I'll have to take and at what time. I enter block one in the spring, so I believe all my classes will be in the morning, but I don't really know.

ANYWAY,

I'm supposed to go to NY Wednesday, but my uncle is really sick and might not make it this time, so all our family came down here and will be going to South Carolina in the next few days to see him, so we're going to see what we can do about rearranging our flights for another time. If I don't go to NY, I may go to Nashville with my besttt friend and her family. Her parents are attending a conference and staying at the Opryland Hotel (or w/e it's called) and we get to tagalong and stay poolside all week if we want to. Her boyfriend leaves for basic soon, and if he's still here when they leave, she's staying back (which I would do too), so we'll seeee.

I'm going to the beach with her and her childhood bff in August for 3 days, 2 nights :) yay. I haven't been in almost 4 years... probably because the only times I've ever been to the beach I have had bad experiences haha .. she says it'll be fun going with just friends. I've only ever been with a friends family andddd when babysitting for family friends lol .. never got to go with friends to just hang and chill.. I assume it'll be a good time with just the girls :).

Hmmm. one of my sisters/bestfrands gets married july 30th, so I should be out in mooresville for her wedding that night YAY :)

I think that basically covers the summer. I can't wait to get back to Boone and be reunited with friends and sisters and certain guys//a certain guy :) ((I guess I forgot to mention the lame dates I went on this summer... this guy literally thought he could impress me with his money and get in my pants - uh no, sorry... no matter how rich you are, I'm not just gonna bang you. ew))

I'm especially excited to get back to boone because I will be in an APARTMENT this year!! yay. and it will be with my bestestttt friend and two randos, lol, but whatever.

Okay this is long, I'm tired, and I'd really like to shower. byee :)

Happy Easter

Happpyyy Easter everybody :)

I've been home since Thursday. Julia and I had a fun roadtrip home as usual hah. This time we didn't talk so much that we missed the exit, but when we got off the exit I told her to make a left instead of a right, haha .. so I did almost get us lost. But we realized that we were going the wrong way by the time we turned, so we turned around asap haha.

Uhmm.. I worked ALLLLL day Friday, but I made nearly $40 in goal money on top of the, like, $50 in my check .. soo whaddup nearly $100 in one day of work!! thank goodness bc I am broke !

Today we're going to aunt lib's for Easter lunch/dinner around 3ish , so yay for that! :) The only thing that drives me nuts about being in the LKN is that I never get cell service at her house unless I'm , like, outside at the end of the driveway. pooh. lol.

I hafta wake up around 6am tomorrow for the drive back to Boone since I have to be at my 10am class. I luhh Fergypooh to miss his lecture right before the exam, especially because I'm crossing my fingers that he basically gives us the answers :) .

We're initiating our newest pledge class tomorrow night. whaddupp about to have some new sistas. hope they can handle guzzling that lions blood. just gotta remember to pinch your nose and take it like a champ! yum yum yummmm ;)

okay welllll MY BIFFERR EVIEEE TURNS 21 WEDNESDAY aka reading day eve!! sad about skipping senior wills, but stokeddd about macados and after to celebrate my biffers entrance into REAL adulthood!

okay, well since my laptop decides it wants to freeze all the time, and I am getting irritated right now, I am ending this post. whoop.

HOPE EVERYONE HAS A HIPPITY HOPPITY HAPPY EASTER!! :)

oh hey April

It's APRIIIIILLLL !!!

lol I don't have anything to say, but it's been a long while since I've updated.

I'm hungry haha.

Next semesters schedule is the bomb dot com! no mondays or fridays = 4 day weekend! I was accepted into the college of ed and , with a minor, will be able to graduate after my fifth year - ballaaa :D

lifes good right now,

k

thats all

byee :)

oh ps, I FINALLY MADE IT TO LAZY FIVE RANCH AND IT WAS THE BEST THING EVER!!

I miss the days...

where when sick, I could just stay huddled under my covers and mom would take care of me. Chicken noodle soup, some cold meds that my PARENTS paid for, and a trip to the real doctor, not health services, was in order. Now here I am, a junior in college, 20 years old, sick, and huddled under my covers, forcing myself to go to class because I can't fail my classes just because of having too many absences. I feel like if a student can never come to class and make an A, then that's what should happen. I feel like crap and my professors are forcing me to be "that girl" in class who is sniffling, blowing her nose like a gross person, and coughing loudly while they're trying to call role. Sorry, I'm not trying to contaminate everyone, but when I clearly just blew my nose and you're passing out papers for me to hand to the person behind me - yeah, I'm aware how gross it was that I touched it.. sorrryyyy .

UGH I JUST WANNA BE HOME AND TAKEN CARE OF AND NOT SICK!!!!!! My nose is dried out from blowing it, my head hurts from blowing my nose, I my chest hurts from coughing, stomach hurts from the disgusting OTC medicine that I just spent my last dime on ... ughh . I just wanna be better already!

so much more I could say right now, but no point getting into it. It's Feb 16th, huh? Yeah.. just wanna curl up and stay in bed for the next week. missing a lot of people right now, some a little more than others.. some a whole lot more.. :/

Christmas Break!!

Wooowww,, clearly I have not updated this in FOREVER...

I have been SO focused on school this past semester and getting my grades up and attempting to graduate on time. I am happy to say my grades are uppp! So far I've gotten 4 of my grades back, and three of them are As... yaaayyyyy lol . As for graduating on time - that's not happening. I didn't manage to get my application to the college of ed in on time, which means that out of the 17 hours I needed next semester, only 4 hours of those classes were available to me, so I'm just taking a few filler courses. On the bright side, some of those filler classes are withhh my faves :) yay! Buuut that also means that rather than being one semester behind, I'll be an entire year behind - my parents aren't gonna be so happy about that. eek! Ohhh well. One the bright side, I get to graduate with most of my pledge class faves!! haha.

Well since the last time I updated this was in the middle of recruitment....

We got one heck of an AMAZING pledge class!! These girls are wonderful and I'm excited to say I killed my bank account taking two of them as my littles :) yay for continuing on with Amanda making us one HUGE family!!! :) And even though my bank account disappeared this semester, I wouldn't have it any other way!!

My sister got married in October and the wedding was AMAZING! I loved getting to see all of the family and I loved getting craaazyyy with my cousins and aunts & uncles! It was SO much fun - oh how I loveee being Italian ;) lol. The wedding meant missing homecoming, but it's all good :)

Two weeks later was fall break and my besttt friends 20th birthday! sooo her fiance (who moved to Wyoming in Sept) and I planned on him driving out here and surprising her - she had NO idea!! she thought I sucked at keeping secrets because I "let it slip" to her that we were going to a concert and that we were getting dolled up and goin to dinner. We hit a slight bump when her truck broke down, but that just meant him showing up that morning to surprise her and drive her to work instead of him showing up during dinner... ahh :) it was presh!

K welllll thennn came thanksgiving break. I got a few hours at work and got to see my faves! yay! ((clearly nothing too exciting was happening at school -- I was just trying to survive.. and all my study rooms in the library really paid off!!!) Umm I don't really remember thanksgiving break haha. i'm assuming i spent it all with the bff though :) lol ohh yeahh .. I went to see Tangled with Nikki and I went and saw Harry Potter with Randi :)

Nowwww I'm home for Christmas - made it out of Boone just in time to escape the two scary blizzards!! Now I'm sitting in my house all alone bored out of my mind lol. Matthew will be in Concord in a week! yay for me. and yay for nikki because bradley should be here in two.. so yay for double dates and stuff !!!! :) :) lol us and our cowboys hah ;p . noah's still ridin me to hang out with him too so that should work into our schedules. anddd then I was talking to bradley and matthew about comin out to wyoming to visit them and nikki this summer since she's plannin on movin out there - so sad for me lol. buuut matthew told me i should have noah fly out when I do , which is good for me because i'm a big baby and would be terrified flyin by myself lol. but either way, it'd be fun to get out there and see my favorite people for 2-3 weeks this summer... plus i've never been anywhere other than the Easy coast!! eeeek!! :)

lol okay well this blog is long enough! I'm ready to get back to work and make some money this break and I'm excited for my lack schedule next semester - 14 hours where 10 of them are BS classes - fingers crossed I pull another Deans or Chancellors list! :) :) kbyeee !

sorrrrrrryyyyyy

Look, im sorry. Im sorry for bothering you. Im sorry for all the texts I send you. Im sorry for IMing you the second you get online. Im sorry I keep asking if youre free to hang out. Im sorry I ask random questions. Im sorry that I ask about your life. Im sorry that im a bother to you. Im sorry that I always recite all those silly friendship quotes. But heres the truth. Im not sorry for any of those things; I only did it because you’re my friend. What im really sorry for is that you don’t realize how much our friendship means to me. Im sorry that I have a deep worry that this friendship wont last much longer. Im sorry I wanted to talk to you. Im sorry I wanted to get your opinions and advice on things. Im sorry I wanted to hang out with you. I just thought that’s what friends did. Im sorry I was willing to do anything to get your attention. I didn’t know being friends was too much to ask from you. Im sorry that im now left with only memories of what used to be. Please do me one favor, when you see the tears gently falling down my cheeks, don’t try to comfort me. I don’t need a reminder of how I could always tell you everything. So please, if this is over, then lets just say our goodbyes and walk away and not look back, because I cant believe that a friendship I once held so dear to my heart is now fading to nothing. Now thats really what Im sorry for.

Recruitment time again?!

Ohh my gosh! Last night we were all required to deactivate facebook for recruitment to avoid any kind of inappropriate communication with PNMs... UGHHH. anddd they made us delete our myspaces too ... i worked YEARS on my beautiful myspace hahaha . You can't get those back once they're gone, so i'm all sad about that .. especially because I was friends on myspace with people who had passed away .. talk about rough. I can't get them back now. Geeee thanks. Oh well. It's yet another thing that I'll get over. Story of my life.

Anyway. Now without facebook or myspace (or twitter if we had one) preoccupying my life, I need something to do. I'm currently avoiding doing my laundry. I was gonna skip out on getting lunch with everyone to do laundry, but I can totally just get lunch then come back to the APH and do it... no reason that I have to stick around campus or whatever. I don't feel like getting all dressed up just to go get lunch though, so I'm not gonna. hah. suckkkk on that ;p.

Umm . I don't really know what to say. My life has been in shambles for the past week, but luckily my best friend came and visited me this past weekend and I guess that's all I really needed. My mood was sooo much better. But now that she's gone I'm all whatever again. That's kinda an issue. hah. Ohh well. I'm probably just homesick and sooo incredibly NOT used to that feeling.
Emily's wedding is coming up soon! It's Oct 9th! Eeeek! I can't wait to get home and see all my friends and family though! Woohooo! then two weeks after that is fall break so I get to see my bestest friend agaaaainnnn :) haha.

Hmm. First home game is Saturday. SOOO EXCITED! I can't wait for the tailgate. They managed to get every single one of our tailgates this semester with a fraternity. So yay for good food!! haha. The sad thing is, I know the fair is in town (in Concord) this weekend and I'd way rather go to the fair with friends then be here for football... yet another reason I think I'm homesick or something ... I've NEVER passed on football. Not for ANYTHING. Not in the rain, snow, cold, etc. AHHH WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME?!?! lol

Okay well I need to start getting dressed and crap if I want to catch the bus to campus. Gahhh it's inconvenient living this far away lol

Whatup junior yearrr

Okay so I was really slack in the whole blog thing this summer, but what can I say? When ya work two jobs you just don't have time. Anywho, here I am back in good ol' Boonetown. Living in the APH ..yay!! :) yall don't even know how good it felt to be able to use my own appcard to get in here -- it was SO frustrating last year always having to wait to be let in. grrr. haha. Olivia, Sam, Amber, and I were stuck with the quad on the fourth floor, but we're making the best of it by dividing it up into two rooms.. Olivia and I with the front, bigger room :), Sam & Amber with the back room that has more closet space..... it's okay, Olivia and I enjoy using the floor for our crap hahaha.

First night up was Thursday and we all celebrated our return with dinner at Flipside and a small party-ish at John's. Fooseball has never been so entertaining ;). Yesterday we had to help with freshman move in and got stuck at East with no elevators or AC :( worst location ever. We basically spent the rest of the day hanging out in our room or upstairs on the phi mu floor with people. finalllyyyy had tech services check out my laptop. they got my internet up and running but still can't figure out why my appstate email wont work on my computer -- probably a virus. so i used my roommates computer to get on my email and forward all my emails to my stupid yahoo address .. annoying, but now I won't have to worry about taking my computer to tech services right as classes start, when I'll need it most.

Speaking of classes - FIVE on Mondays... I go from 9am til 8 pm . ughhh WHY DO EDUCATION CLASSES ALWAYS HAVE TO LAST AT LEAST TWO HOURS?!?!!? geeeeeeez. Tuesday I only have two (which will become one after fall break), Wednesday I have 3 or 4.. can't remember. Thursday just one, and Friday two. word up.

Our recruitment schedule is just as ridiculously busy. omg .. every day we have something else to do. daaangit! can't wait til that's over with in October - hopefully we get some baller girls!! :)

Em's wedding is getting close... it's Oct.9th I believe... something like that. fun fun.

hm, nothing really go on other than this. I miss my best friends back home. ugh. this summer wasn't long enough. by the time i left firehouse in july i only had two weeks of relaxation with people before coming back to school ugh. soooo not going back there next summer! :) hopefully my bank account doesnt completely disappear so i won't have to do the two jobs thing. whatever.

Well there's nothing much more to say, so I'm out. bye :)

So even though my life is in shambles, it's no longer in the shambles I originally thought.

It's been a long few weeks (I have no idea the last time I updated this). I'm currently sitting in my room, freezing. I'm always either super cold or super hot. Tonight my body chose cold. And I'm tired, but I can't go to sleep until I hear from one of my friends ... anddd my guess is that she made it safely to her destination and that things are well, so she doesn't have her phone. fingers crossed that's the situation anyway. so i'm going to stay up until 3am. if I don't hear from her by then, I suppose that means I can sleep. Otherwise, who knows.

Today was crazy. Wedding stuff with the sister then worked 4-8 then went to wal mart and sat in the parking lot eating ice cream until we were so creeped out by the one dude, we came back to my house and facebook stalked - my life story.

closing shift tomorrow. then sunday i open at the jump and close at firehouse. one job would be so nice right now, haha. and i think it's pretty clear which one i enjoy most :)

okay. well I need to go entertain myself so I don't fall asleep. byeee

your love, your love, your love is my druggg ♥ i like your beard

Sooo
I'm just gonna post a website that I love and that makes me feel like my life is in shambles even moreso than I know it already is...

www.givesmehope.com and especially www.lovegivesmehope.com

but i still love textsfromlastnight :) it'll always be my faveee! haha

. but back to my life being in shambles .. yeah , it is. i've been so uptight about things lately. I had a doctors appt the other day and it was good & bad news .. kinda. it's like, they said i wasn't .. sick .. but they didn't know why my body is going psycho on me. soo then i missed a call from the doc yesterday and i'm so scared to call them back bc that's all the dumb voicemail said was "hi ms cecconi, this is so&so from the blanketyblank physicians office .. we received your test results this afternoon and will be glad to share them with you if you'd call us back or just come on in during such&such hours ... thanks and have a great day ...


ugh. well i am sorry but i will not have a great day because you just doubled my stress levels.

i want to be as healthy as your average, normal teenager. i don't want anything going on with my body right now that should not be going on. anddd I just want this freakishhness to STOP.


I am so glad to have Heather to let me vent. I'm so glad to have Laura to help me think of what I'd do if the doctor called back saying something sketch like "you have one month to live..." and I'm so glad to have Eve to put an entertaining spin on it all "... If I have to worry about all of this and recruitment, someone's dick is getting chopped off" good gracious . I guess, in the end, this is what sisters are there for... a shoulder to cry on, someone to offer up the advice you need to hear, and someone to help you smile and bring you back up when you're at your lowest. I miss them so much and I cannot wait to see Anna, Steph, and Kelsey tomorrow.. maybe even Kelly! I didn't think I'd see any of my sisters this summer, and I've already seen so many with so many more to come!! :) thank you jesusss for blessing me with the best unbiological sisters anyone could ever ask for ! <3

Field Day Pics ((probably gonna look messy)

You're my object of affection, my drug of choice, my sick obsession ...

It's officially been summer break for a few weeks now. I got home around May 5th and gave myself a lovely two weeks before I decided to go back to work. And you know the best part?! When I went to the mall that Thursday with the bff we were walking past the mall jump & they were hiring, so I filled out an application, was interviewed, and was hired on the spot :) Yeahh, buddy! I've already completed my training there and am an official employee!! I'm available there any weeknight after 5 and anytime weekends, leaving me free for Firehouse Mon-Thursdays 9am-4pm .. woohoo. Sooo yeahh, working 7 dayssss a week ,, except the occasional day off (which only comes from the mall jump)

So here I am, working two jobs. I still hate it at Firehouse (but they're so convenient for me .. practically making my own schedule and doing my own thing since I already know how to do everything). The mall jump is something new and refreshing, and it's a LOT of fun. Even with the rude/ridiculous parents and the teens who think it's funny to be trashy .. I enjoy it over there. I'm still a little slow & learning some of the stuff, but it's a cool environment and the people I work with are great :) ... seeing as I already know some of them from high school, haha.


Soo there you go -- that's what I've been doing this summer. I've literally been working. Yuck. The only good part is that I've already seen some sisters : Kim, Kelly, & Sam ... Amanda was gonna come visit on Tuesday but now she can't :( . I'll see a lot of Sam and Olivia, I'm sure. Kim lives 10 minutes from me, but she's gonna be in Boone this summer. MaryE lives around here, but she'll be in Florida .. so who knows what'll be happening around here.

I went up to the high school last Friday and helped out with the special ed field day which was fun as always. I got to see my kids which was the first time since December :).

My brother graduates June 13 (exactly two years to the day after me!) So I'm taking off work for that. Emily's bridal shower won't be until September, so hopefully I'll make it home for school for that. Saying I didn't wanna be maid of honor was apparently rude .. so now I'm stuck. In a green dress. That's not cute. Well hopefully it'll look cuter when I see the color on the dress when all the alterations are done .. hopefully :/ . I don't mind dresses if I can pick them out and if I like them .. but leave my sister in charge and I better darn well dye my hair (Because my highlights are just so trashy .. ugh!) and I better get my nails done professionally because when I paint them they look like a child did them.

Like for real ... she better be paying if she expects me to have my hair and nails done professionally because my outta-the-box dye is about 1/10 of the prices of professional. .. lame!

ANYWAYYYY .. I'm rambling because I can't remember the last thing I wrote about and because I've lost my train of thought because I'm jamming out to Ke$ha .. gotta loveee her ♥!! hahaha

Y'all should add me on skype : KitKateKate (was supposed to be kitkatkate, lol .. butttt I messed it up). Sooo yeahh :) I'm going to aunt libby's now. Peace outttt

You stole my happy, you made me cry

... story of my lifeeee

UGHHH I HATE EXAM WEEK!!!!
Worst semester ever. Not excited to get these grades back. Not excited about life in general. And I have to get to work ASAP because I'm literally broke. I've never had so many bills to pay this year, and I've literally spent nearly $1500 - $1700 this school year .. ughhh :( i'm an idiot!! This summer I plan on saving SO much money.

So let's see .. I'm almost a JUNIOR!! Wow. College is FLYING by ..

Hm, how can I sum up this past school year?

August - Moved in, got books, went to classes, etc.
September - Britney Spears concert, went through Rush, "pledged" Phi Mu
October - Continued my "pledge" period of Phi mu, called my Phi period .. Fall break let me go home and hang out with my friends "propose" to Randi, and visit my kids at the school .. I miss them tons right now!
November - I became a sister, had Thanksgiving break, and worked over 20 hours in TWO days when I went home :/ blah blah ew! Came back early for App's game which we WON! Oh yeah, and Langley got engaged on my birthday :) thanks, Bryan :) haha
December - I don't even remember .. I made it through my exams with a pretty GPA .. still above a 3.0 and that's all I care about. Christmas Break was the LONGEST break of my life. I missed everyone so much and worked about 40 hours each week just trying to keep my mind off of how much I wanted to be back in Boone. I went to my aunt & uncles for Christmas Eve the first time in a few years.. twas AMAZING. My sister got engaged Christmas Eve.. it was cool.
January - Came back to school, had a decent schedule except my prof's suck.
February - Started tutoring at Parkway but missed a bazillion days because of snow. Saw the worst winter I've ever seen .. that includes living in New York. It was just insane. Valentines Day was spent with some of my fave sisters :) And of course I had lent without facebook or coffee .. and the one year anniversary of Joel's death :(
March - More snow, brought Amanda home with me for Spring Break. We went to Eve's in Raleigh and went to the zoo in Asheboro.
April- My uncle passed away April 1st from Cancer .. he was bad at one point then doing so well, then he just declined so quickly. I was supposed to go to NY for Easter, but instead we had a funeral.. it was REALLY sad! Then Drew drowned April 12... just the worst thing ever . Ugh. April was just the worst thing ever. Not to mention the one year anniversary of my grandma's death was the same day of eve's bday. lovely. but on the bright side, eve's birthday was SO much fun. made me forget about my month for a few hours.

And now it's May. I'm 2 exams away from being halfway finished with college. Holy. Effing. Pooh. I do not approve. This year has flown by.

The worst part of my year: Uncle Mike & Drew Passing away, especially within two weeks of each other. That was really tough. And school work has been much tougher this past semester .. driving me crazy.
The best part of my year is a mixture between going to Greensboro & the whole experience with the Britney concert, Joining Phi Mu and having sisters who have been there for me through the best and the worst... and sisters who are silly enough to grant me my one little wish and take me to the zoo :) gahhh, I love them :D


Moving on in life, I'll be starting work again next week . Ew. Oh well ...

"you're gonna miss this, you're gonna want this back, you're gonna wish these days hadn't gone by so fast... "

Rest in Peace, Drew Michael Williams

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A very, very good family friend passed away Monday afternoon from drowning in his families pool ... he was only 3 years old, so very close to four. Now, I haven't been as close to the family lately as I once way, but these people are partly my second family and it's so hard to believe their youngest child has passed away.

Drew was a spunky little boy who absolutely loved life. I remember before he was born when their 7 year old daughter, Sarah, was just an infant. I'd babysit her every Saturday night for a few hours while her parents had date night. Then in 2006 when Drew was born (I was 15), I got to go visit them & see this precious little baby boy and his excited parents in all their glory. I remember a few times where my mom would take Sarah for a weekend, but I especially remember the time we took Drew too. We all went to Pizza Hut for dinner and he did not want to be there at all. He'd get really loud and start crying or getting antsy and make a scene. But when I left my seat and went over to him, he immediately calmed down.

Drew and I had a special bond for such a young little boy. His parents took me to the beach for a week the summer before my senior year of high school. I was there to have a good time and to babysit the kids. Now, I was mostly there for Sarah, and also to watch the kids at night time when the adults wanted to go out, but my favorite memories from that beach trip were when we would be eating breakfast and Drew would walk over to the living room area , plop down on me, and squirm around until I turned Rachael Ray on the tv. I absolutely love Rachael Ray, so whenever we had some down time I'd turn her on . Drew would just sit there on my lap or next to me on the couch and he'd watch, silently and so very well behaved. Whenever I'd be there to watch Drew and change his diapers, he would never leave me a grossly dirty diaper to change... it was never more than pee with him unless one of his parents were changing it. I thanked him every night for that, hahaha.

Drew wasn't always the most well behaved child. He loved to explore things, run around, and wasn't necessarily always the best listener, but he sure did make you laugh and smile when you saw him.
When Silly-Pa (his grandfather) was sick in the hospital, I went to their house that night to help babysit so Sarah & Drew's parents could be at the hospital. We would run around in the backyard, play in their families play room, and he'd only let me feed him dinner that night .. my mom had absolutely no luck with him.

Although I've seen him a lot less over the past year with my busy work and school schedule, I will always remember how cute and curly is hair was back then and how much of a precious young man he was starting to become. I can't even imagine what it's like to lose a child or a sibling, seeing as my older sister passed away before I was even born .. I am at a loss of words because losing a child or a sibling or a parent .. that's the worst kind of pain to be felt. My heart goes out to his family. Tara loved her children more than even imaginable and Scott was a FANTASTIC father, and both Tara & Scott will continue being the best parents and the best people they can be. Drew's death was an accident. A tragic accident. Nobody is to blame. I love Tara & Scott as if they were truly my family. Sarah is the most precious, outgoing little girl I've ever met. They're going to be going through a rough time, but it will get easier and they will live their lives cherishing their memories, cherishing the times to come, and they will get through this because they are all strong, amazing people.

Rest in peace, Drew Michael Williams. I love you, hunny bun. Stay strong, Williams family. You guys know that myself and the rest of my family are here any time we're needed!! You guys are in my heart and prayers.

I love you drewy :/

Greek Week ♥

Way too much stuff has happened since my last blog that I just don't have time to cover it all. Never went to NY for Easter because my uncle passed away April 1st, so I had to go home for the funeral & services. It was sad, but it was great to see all my family - a lot of people came here from NY .. my brother couldn't get a flight in, though .. apparently Obama was coming to Charlotte so my brothers plane wouldn't come in... that sucked because I haven't seen him since I graduated :(. Ohh well, I'll see him at Mike's graduation in June.

This past week was Greek Week ((oh, ps, I'm back on facebook .. yay for lent being over .. I'm also drinking coffee again!!)). All of our greek week pictures & stuff are on facebook as well as videos of us in lip sync. I'm in the library now otherwise I'd put our lipsync video on here .. we did GREAT! I was Fred .. you'll understand if you watch :).

Anyway, here are the results (of what I can remember)
Can Food Contest we raised the second highest number of cans, equaling 1000 ... someone else had 1170 and everyone else had under 700, I believe.
Our Banner placed in the top 3 as well as our sculpture, which tied for 2nd.
We didn't place with lip sync, but we still did FANTASTIC and I'm so proud of Melissa and Lauren for teaching our girls some fantastic routines!
Greek games we placed in ice melt, I believe the obstacle course, and we hit 4th for the chariot race...

Also, Greek Goddess is where one girl from each sorority is nominated a Goddess and then everyone has to raise money for the Watauga Education Foundation... Most sororities and fraternities raised a few hundred dollars, and the total combined amount raised was just over $6000... well Phi Mu ladies went around campus asking for donations and we donated to the foundation ourselves ... we alone raised over $2000!!! :) I'm SOOOO PROUD!! LP won greek goddess. :) Yayy! We raised about 1/3 of the ENTIRE GREEK COMMUNITY! YAYYY PHI MU!!♥!! :)

Okay, well I've got some papers to write && stuff to work on.
Happy 21st birthday to my lovely, wonderful, amazing, fantastic big, Amanda :) gettt it girrrrrllll .. officially apart of the "what the eff, i don't need those exes" club .. can't wait til i can join you .. two years from now :( hahahaha.

almost Easter :)

Well I decided to suck it up and go to New York with the family for Easter Break (so sad not to get the house to myself for a few nights). I'm crazy.

Thursday night after tutoring at Parkway I'll be on the road. We'll get to New York Friday night, though. I'll stay with the grandparents Friday night then the rest of the time I'll be in a hotel room or maybe even with Jays & Kathy or something.

Umm. Not much going on recently. We had our sisterhood retreat Friday night until Saturday afternoon. It was a lot of fun to spend that time with a bunch of the girls. Most of them were my pledge class, but I did get to know some of the older girls a little better as well. I roomed with mary, amanda, and eve, so that was an entertaining evening right there. A bazillion people came to our room that night and we played some interesting games before going on an adventure looking for vending machines (the Ridge Hotel, where we stayed, was SKETCHY!!.. in the middle of nowhere. The girls who I rode over with and I got lost on our way there... about 4 times we turned around, still unable to find the road we needed.. took us an hour to get some place about 20 minutes away!). Anyway, the 4 of us ended up staying up until just after 3am talking about nonsense stuff and camp and all sorts of crazy fun. wooo retreat, lol.

Umm, we had recruitment practice Saturday 2-6 then Lauren's birthday party at her place was last night. Tons of fun. Nothing I can really say here other than everyone was pissed at my mad skills (except Corey .. he was happy I held the team up!) Yayy little lauren is all grown up :) haha.

Today has been a lazy day.. very, very lazy day. Just lounging around. Woke up early around 11 because Jayson text me. I originally woke up at 7:45 because my roommate sucks and left her alarm on when she slept somewhere else last night. Could've killed her, especially since I didn't go to bed until 3ish.

Well I'm being lazy and watching some weird tv show, so I'm peacing out. I can't wait until Sunday when I can have a BIG cup of COFFEE and get on FACEBOOK!! :) See ya later. Hope everyone has a great Easter next weekend!! :)

Spring Break Pictures :] Concord, Charlotte, Raleigh, Zoo, TRAIN!

So unfortunately the layout of these pictures turned out funny, but it's the only way I could figure out uploading them. Some overlap eachother (sad day!) but all you have to do is click on them//enlarge them, and you can see them individually. I uploaded majority of the good ones, but I didn't upload a bunch of animal pictures because going to the zoo only costs $10/person (unless you have AAA or a student ID, then you get $1-$2 off!) ... so go see the animals yourself ... and bring me with you!!! hahaha. :) Spring break ROCKED!! (ps, the pic of Amanda and a boy on the train.. he's a random FIJI we met who goes to ECU .. cool kid. He made the trip entertaining for us :) thanks James (I think that was your name, haha)