winter break 2011/2012

One week from today and I will be sitting in a ballroom at the aph with a handful of my sisters being trained for our new exec positions. Yay :) The only non-yay part is leaving Concord around 7am next Sunday in order to make it back to my apartment, unload all of my stuff, and then be at the aph by 10am (aka 5-10 minutes early because I do nottt run on phi mu time - I hate being late!).

A lot has changed since I've last written in this thing. This past semester has been one of my most difficult in regards to the amount of coursework I've had. I had a 25 page paper and faculty presentation for one class. I had to administer and write reports for 3 standardized tests as well as the regular everyday assignments and 100 question short answer exam. My exams in my reading class were insane. FDN was a pointless class for a special ed major, so was CI. Although it gave me some insight into creating a website and creating a lesson plan, which I'd never actually done.

Luckily, somehow, I managed to come out of this semester with all As. How in the heck did I do that?! What bugs me, though, is that I came out with a 3.81 semester gpa and still didn't make chancellors list - with all As (granted half were A-). So insane. I was so proud of myself thinking I'd finally managed chancellors list for once, but no. App state crushed my dreams. Thanks. Hah.

This semester was good for me within the greek life realm, though. After being MIA the semester before because, let's face it, everyone needs a break sometimes, I finally got back into hyper-involvement mode. Re-ran for a position and go it - yay. I took another little, and she's totally perfect (duh!), I got two glittles who are equally perfect (my family would never take less than perfect!), went to every function, showed up to every tailgate, and enjoyed the last home game with some of my favorite seeesters! :). Helped a lot with philanthropy, went to Levine's for the halloween booth, random roadtrips with new and old girls - nothing more fun than our recruitment trip to TN - learned SO much! It was great to reconnect with some of the girls, especially my PC, who I'd veered away from the semester before. Gahh I needed a pledge class reunion, especially after the sweetest of sweet girls informed me how I'd been a total beyotch ("kate ,, can I be completely honest with you for a sec") HAHAHA ohh wow :)

I'm so ready for what this spring has to offer, with everything. School, sorority, life..

I'm a year behind in school, so I'll just not be starting block this semester. I'm kind of nervous about finally being in a classroom. I've been so on and off with if I'd actually be a good teacher and how I'd rather work in a profession that isn't teaching, but still with ec kids, that I'm on edge. With Phi Mu I'm just hoping I do my exec position to the best of my ability and that I'm not that hated exec member who lets power get to her head/doesn't do her job/is obnoxious . With school, I also want to make good grades again, keep up the good work, and not let the stress get to me.

With life, my biggest decision is to really start to let Joel go now. I've messed up all relationships since him because I don't want to get hurt the way I did with him. I also don't want to give up on what we had. In my mind I'll never find something as special or wonderful, so I never wanted to try. But, despite everything, it's time to finally move on. Fitzy & all of Joel's clothes are now in the closet. I can't bring myself to get rid of everything quite yet, but at least it's put away in storage. I've taken all the jewelry he gave me and put that to the side, too. It's hard. It was SO weird being at work yesterday and every time I went to grab my necklace to make sure the clasp was in the back, or just to play with the necklace, it wasn't there. I felt naked without it.

It's time to move away from the past. Joel was a giant part of mine. But he's gone now. He died, and I need to get over it. He's not coming back, so I need to stop holding on, waiting, or whatever creepy thing I'm doing.

Well, that's all I have for now.

Happy 2012. Hopefully everyone is wrong and the world doesn't end. I've only gotten started with truly living! :)

whaddduppp fall !

So I haven't updated this in ages, it feels.

HAPPY AUTUMN!!

The remainder of summer was awesome. Living in an apartment in Boone is SO much better than the dorms. Everything about living here is awesome, except the buses - as usual. School is fine. I'm getting lazier and lazier as the semester progresses. Thank goodness my classes are pretty easy. I'm working at the gym as a fac tech, aka I clean for two fours hours on mondays and two hours on thursdays. Whatever, it's money in the bank.

Now, I can get to why I wanted to update.

Today I learned to NEVER try settling for someone when you know all along that you have someone else in your mind. You'd think you have a type but someone else is interested so you give them a chance and they turn around and act sleezy. Like, what was the point of straying from your original type to begin with? What a waste of the last 6 months. Oh well. Goes to show you should listen to your friends when they say to keep away. I feel like giving someone the benefit of the doubt is usually good, but apparently not. Boys are dumb. Girls are hypocrites. Thank goodness for best friends who keep you sane, though, right? Yeah.

Well now that I've finished that rant... yesterday was super fun :) Skipped our tailgate with TKE to hang out with Mrs Teeter & her fam. omg last time I saw the little ones they were not talking. totally caught me by surprise. highlight of yesterday was getting to go in the moon bounce and down the big ol inflatable slide. If they do this every tailgate, I know where I wanna be!! hahaha Hung out at the APH watching the Titanic til I finally made it back to my apartment last night. Stayed in, went to bed early, slept in all day today, watched Titanic again (thanks E! for putting it on a zillion times in the past month) anddd moped in bed all day like the little piss ant that I am.

Okay, well that's about it. No more settling for stupid boys. I'm gonna wait til I find my wonderful down home honest country boy or i'm gonna be a dog lady forever (sorry, just not a fan of cats, with the exception of a select few). kbye :)

i love flying

I went to New York! yay :) It was a ton of fun. The plane ride home was the best part, I think. We hit an air pocket and the plane dropped a few feet and then hit a BUNCH of turbulance, some old lady started screaming (old, as in, like.. 50s), everyone looked really tense and freaked out, and I just cracked up laughing - got a bunch of angry looks for that HAHA. I love flying, so it didn't bother me.

Anyway, while we were there I got to see a TON of family, finalllyyy meet the youngest of the cousins, jack, who's only 6. he's funny. got to see some cousins I havne't seen in YEARS... ridic. We counted up and there are 26 of us cousins on the fruscello side of the family. it's awesome.

I got to play bartender a few times and mix up a few concoctions for the older cousins and got to lay out at the pool with them. It's funny... I told my cousin stacey how I used to look up to her as a kid and thought she was the coolest person ever, and now i'm finally "grown up" hangin out by the pool and at the bars with them. haha. so crazy. I turned my cousin bianca into a little southern princess, convinced my uncle to buy her some cowboy boots... she actually fit into mine (she's 11!!!) and she followed me around all night the way I used to follow my older cousins. so cute. I gave her my sunglasses to take home with her and she was super excited.

One of my aunts (the one we stayed with) took my cousin bree & i to this art gallery and shopping downtown one day - the cutest shops ever.. some a little pricey for my liking (we saw shorts that were near $200 and were like.. heckkk no!). Some guy at a chocolate shop told me I look nothing like a guinea .. raahuuudeee. I may not look italian, but it's 100% in my blood. must have ancestors from northern italy with how pale I am, espec compared to the people i was with.

The last day we were in NY was a bad one. uncle john finally passed away, so we all got together and uncle freddy's and had a big dinner, my mom & her siblings all talked and stuff while the kids hung out inside. it was crazy bc it started storming when we were in the pool and then the power went out in the house. ahhh . uncle john's funeral is coming up this weekend and his obituary is out... http://robinsonfuneralhomes.com/fh/obituaries/obituary.cfm?o_id=1215984&fh_id=10720

okay welllll i forgot what else i was writing so this is all. kbyee

sweet summertime :)

Wow it has been a long time since I've written in this.

Summer has been quite interesting, to say the least.

I'm still working at the jump, but only the jump now. I couldn't deal with Firehouse anymore. Yuck. Four years was long enough. Unfortunately, I cannot get the hours I really need working where I do now, so I'll probably look for a part time job in Boone, just some simple spending money, so not really more than 10-15 hours per week. I feel like that shouldn't be too difficult since I don't have classes monday or friday and my wednesday classes don't begin until 2. The only problem is with recruitment first semester I definitely can't work weekends and nights until nearly October. And then second semester who knows what classes I'll have to take and at what time. I enter block one in the spring, so I believe all my classes will be in the morning, but I don't really know.

ANYWAY,

I'm supposed to go to NY Wednesday, but my uncle is really sick and might not make it this time, so all our family came down here and will be going to South Carolina in the next few days to see him, so we're going to see what we can do about rearranging our flights for another time. If I don't go to NY, I may go to Nashville with my besttt friend and her family. Her parents are attending a conference and staying at the Opryland Hotel (or w/e it's called) and we get to tagalong and stay poolside all week if we want to. Her boyfriend leaves for basic soon, and if he's still here when they leave, she's staying back (which I would do too), so we'll seeee.

I'm going to the beach with her and her childhood bff in August for 3 days, 2 nights :) yay. I haven't been in almost 4 years... probably because the only times I've ever been to the beach I have had bad experiences haha .. she says it'll be fun going with just friends. I've only ever been with a friends family andddd when babysitting for family friends lol .. never got to go with friends to just hang and chill.. I assume it'll be a good time with just the girls :).

Hmmm. one of my sisters/bestfrands gets married july 30th, so I should be out in mooresville for her wedding that night YAY :)

I think that basically covers the summer. I can't wait to get back to Boone and be reunited with friends and sisters and certain guys//a certain guy :) ((I guess I forgot to mention the lame dates I went on this summer... this guy literally thought he could impress me with his money and get in my pants - uh no, sorry... no matter how rich you are, I'm not just gonna bang you. ew))

I'm especially excited to get back to boone because I will be in an APARTMENT this year!! yay. and it will be with my bestestttt friend and two randos, lol, but whatever.

Okay this is long, I'm tired, and I'd really like to shower. byee :)