Today I realized that I am one exam away from finishing my freshman year of college. Whoa. Four years ago I remember it hitting me that I was a rising sophomore and would be graduating high school and off in the real world. I remember thinking how scary it would be to go to college, live with a stranger, and even to do my own laundry (which my roommate lovingly taught me how to do, haha). I was terrified of being out in the real world.
Four years later, I've realized that college isn't the real world, it's practice. College is being out on your own, but still having someone or something to fall back on. That's why I'm hoping to get an off campus apartment my junior year - it's a step closer to the real world, more practice in paying bills, having a rent, having my own place, etc. It's a freaky thing to think about - going out into the real world. I'm already an adult, but graduating college at 21 and having a real job, a lifelong career... that's just mindblowing to me right now.
How do I know I'll be good at my chosen profession? I pulled a 98 in the intro class, but I'm not sure how anyone couldn't - it was simple. I love working with kids who have special needs, but I'm not sure if I'm the right person to teach them. What if I belong in elementary ed or if I really should open my own daycare? The only thing I know about my future is that I want to work with kids. Opening my own daycare would be ideal, but I don't like the business part of things. That means daycare is out. I would love to teach elementary education because by the time I'm a full time teacher, inclusion will probably be more popular, and I'd still be able to work with kids who have special needs, as well as volunteering for events such as the Special Olympics. That would be great for me. At the same time, I really would love to have my small class of special needs students. I had never considered teaching special education until my senior year of high school. I didn't event want to be a peer helper, but Mrs. Guion signed me up because my schedule was short. I ended up signing myself up again second semester because I had so much fun with it and I visit their classes all the time when I'm home on break (can't wait for Field Day the 15th!!).
I guess I'm just thinking the same things I was thinking about last year - the year having passed by so quickly and graduation coming up so soon. If this year went by really fast, I can only imagine how quickly sophomore through senior year will go, especially since student teaching my senior year will take up an entire semester... ohh wow!
I talked about all of this with Ms. Langley back then, and she basically told me to live it up now because it goes by fast... whatever she said exactly is one of my facebook quotes, but I'm too lazy to go look it up. I just can't believe how close the real world is. I'm 18. I'll be 21 when I graduate. OHH CRAPP YO! hahaha.
I'm so excited for summer, though. I go back to Firehouse May 9th and will be there all summer. They're supposed to be moving to the food court in the mall, but I don't know when that's happening, so for now, you can find me on BS Blvd :]
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